Yeah, my family is pissed I'm not christian. Hell, I was almost raised a mormon, thankfully not. But most my life, christian schools, christian churches every sat (and wednes) and so on. And I was never convinced. Is that so bad? I mean.. in my opinion, most of America believes in god because they were taught god from the start. Lets say.. they take what they're given, and don't question it as often as they should. And when they do, they lean twards what they believe in, although they may not know it, because they 1. Need a god to be there, to make them feel whole.. 2. Don't know it, but they've always been taught god, so they still don't put up a fair trial for the opposing religion. I do know there was something out there to give life a push-start, but it doesn't mean he/her/it is there now. It may be, but I like the whole see it, believe it deal. And as far as the mind goes, I know MY mind is there because.. I just used it a second ago. I don't know god is there, because I don't use him, or feel him.
I went through a process of hating god. I wasn't quite racist, but I despised the dude. Tons of family tragedys and etc. I often thought, "why does god take people away in such brutal ways? I could understand why he couldn't take them away in their sleep, but when they lay there in agony, for hours knowing death is near.. it's not right. Then, one day I decided "I would waste a lot less time, to not give a crap instead of hate him".. and that's where I remain now and for years to come.
